Survive, maybe?

Maybe the pain will go
Maybe it will hurt no longer
but the memories - oh them memories
And the scars
Nay, they stay
They plunder, assault
Degrade, kill, hurt,
Break, pound into
The very self of you
Until there's pain
Than can't be taken
or numb till you can feel no more
Maybe the numbness is better
So as your heart shatters
and your mind is bleak
And your feelings bleed.
Just not knowing.
This may help
This may make it better
Just. A. Little.  Better.
So you don't have to know
What's happening
What's taken away
What pain, that wounds you
Beyond repair
Beyond fixation
Beyond any damn salvation
So let it pulse
The blood,
The crimson tag of death
Maybe it'll leave
Maybe the apparitions
Will chase you no longer
And maybe for once
You can breath
And not hurt
And maybe you can
Hold yourself steady
And your insides
Won't scream, won't crack
And you'll maybe
for a moment
Survive.